since he accepted christ and his life changed, he was very committed. it doesn't matter what beatings he goes through. it doesn't matter if they say we're going to kill you. >> wendy: as a wife, what has been the hardest part of this for you? >> the lord has given me grace to go to his presence and get my comfort. but as a mom, every time it is like a stab in my heart when i see them struggling and i can't do anything about it. my son is very -- his character has changed 100% since the arrest. he won't talk as much. he is very reserved. my daughter, she just cries a lot. what does this say? >> it says i miss you, dad. >> and these are your tears? >> yes. >> wendy: nagma admits at first she sunk into dispair. >> i was in extreme depression and anxiety and worried. i could see that where i was almost being broken. i would have had to check myself in. but the lord didn't let me break. i clung to him and i cried out to him, and i said, lord, in phillipians, you promised you will give peace beyond understanding. and he gave me that peace. so the scripture is